Change

I want change but I have been slacking off. That is the simple truth. I dream one day to be a writer and write my stories as I experience the world. I want to have an unconventional career, be totally in control and free to do with what I want.

Instead, I spent hours browsing online on meaningless things. That store has a sale of 30% off. Let me check if there’s any deals worth my money. I let my blog go weeks and weeks without any new material. I didn’t try to think new topics. It’s not that I don’t know what to write, as much as I want to convince myself.

Photo credit: Lorenzo Tomada

I don’t know when did it happen. I hit the power button of my mind. There are so many things to write about all around me. I stopped uncovering them over time. It is much easier to not thinking about much after a day of work. I felt like I deserve permanent breaks on all times off work, including weekends.

Without feeling I am accomplishing much for months, it is time to get back at it. I realize one thing. I don’t merely enjoy (want) writing to express myself, though it is an essential part of it. I need to write. It makes me seek purpose and see the beautiful things in the world that I couldn’t see if I close my mind.

It is easy to read an article on a tablet or watch a video on youtube. It doesn’t equate to writing in terms of the level of thinking and concentration needed. I am resuming my journey of seeking and bring positive changes in my life along the way.

On Communication: It’s a Text World (DP)

Photo credit: Mary Beth Griffo Rigby

How do you communicate differently online than in person, if at all? How do you communicate emotion and intent in a purely written medium?

In terms of communicating with friends and family, I definitely prefer face to face. The body language and facial expression matters so much. When texting a friend, words can be so deceiving. Context is missing and there are none visual cues.

There is only so much one can write/type and read at one time. I feel I can never express myself fully to my friends if I’m texting. It is also a bad feeling when I don’t receive a response instantaneously.

Of course, there is also blogging/writing. It is my outlet to express myself. It is therapy. There were times I sat on the bus and my mind is somewhere far far away and I have the urge to write down my thoughts. Sometimes I’m sharing travel tips. But mostly, it is the stories and uncover what people normally wouldn’t know even if they travelled there before.

Over time, I have become more open to write about feelings and experiences that are personal (such as Too Big To Fail ?! (DP) – Fear to Fail Big & Resilience). For a long time, I was reluctant to post these “emo” blog posts and then share with the world while putting my name on it.

I believe life is a journey. I had so many stories in my journey thus far. Rather than bottled up inside, I want to express something, learn something, and be better at something.

In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “It’s a Text, Text, Text, Text World.”